2.28.2011

Migraine Days

Have you ever had a migraine? 
~If not, consider yourself to be the luckiest person alive. 

Waking up to a screaming alarm clock at whatever hour it was this morning was not my ideal morning call. Turn the damn thing off is what was going on in my noggin as I nudge Wesleberrycrunch to turn it off. I wake up to it being nice and bright outside, mind you on any other day I would be happy it was bright outside but today, today I really hated it. 
As I ask Wesleberrycrunch to bring me some Tylenol, he asks, " where is it?" "It's where it always is above the toilet," I explain to him. "Well, I can't find it," he banters back to me. "Well its the ibuprofen, same thing." He comes in and brings me them and forgets the water, in my noggin at that very moment I was thinking, "are you freakin serious," but I said can you get me some water. Well he gladly did of course. 

All I wanna do right at this very moment is to hurl, literally! I'm hungry, so hungry it makes me sick. My noggin is throbbing like a bomb about to explode! And any abrupt noises makes me cringe. I just wanna curl up in my nice warm bed and sleep, but no, I can't do that I have to go to class this afternoon at 12:30. Wesleberrycrunch is getting ready to head off to class then comes and gives me a kiss goodbye.  

I really wish that I could will myself to forget about the 8 days I can miss of that class and sleep. But sleep is an understatement when I feel the way I do. All I can do is try and put pressure on my temples and try and fall back asleep. But I jump right up and hit the shower. I must go to class in an hour and a half.

I turn the water on, jump in and sit! I sat in the shower for about 15 minutes before I realized I really needed to start getting ready for this "horrible day". I do all my business in the shower and jump out. I'm feeling better already because of my shower. I blow dried my mile length hair, and put some clothes on and out the door I was at 12 o'clock. 

Walking to class: The wind is blowing and it starts to rain. Just my luck! I can barely see anything because little rain droplets are all over my glasses and to top it off I almost fall on the slushy snow on the side walk. I get to class 10 minutes early; I must have walked very quick like because it was very cold and wet and windy. 

Class: Sit down in my assigned seat, and jump on Facebook! I wait till the teacher arrives to tell him how my grandmother had passed away on Friday and I would need to be excused for class on Friday. Well he gives me a remark as to that's your part to manage with your 8 days of absence. Well I'm sorry. Then, I sit down and Facebook more and play Fruit Ninja and random games and such on my iPod. Finally, 1:20 has come along to end this miserable class.

Lunch: I am very hungry at this point in the day, and stop and get some lunch with a friend, lets call her Shelley. I grab some Chinese food from the commons and grab a table. I feel like I could be one of those anorexic people and just start picking at my food. Gosh damn it, I just spent 7 dollars on some food and I take like maybe 6 bites and I don't feel well enough to eat the rest. 

Walking to the dorms: I wanted to hang out with Shelley till her class started, which was at 3:30. It was barely 2. It decides to become a blizzard outside while walking. My noggin hurt so bad I didn't want to open my eyes. So I told Shelley to lead me to the dorms. So I almost made it all the way there before I couldn't stand it any longer, I had to open my eyes. Even though my head hurt, it was hurting my eyes more to keep them closed. (If that makes any sense). So we made it to the dorms safe and sound. 

Dorms: Sitting in her roommates chair talking and what not, trying to forget about how awful I feel. Then her roommate gets home only to say, "can I have my chair?" I really wanted to say, "no, I don't feel well can you go and sit in another chair." But I didn't I was nice and got up. So Shelley and I decided to go downstairs to the basement of the dorms. We hung out there until Shelley had to go to class. Wesleberrycrunch picked me up, and brought me home so I didn't have to walk in the blizzard that was outside.

Home: Knowing I don't feel well, all I wanna do is hit my head to the pillow that lays on my bed. But I don't do that, first I think of everything that needs to get done today, homework mainly. Then I sit down and do it. Then I remember I need to write a blog because it's been awhile since I did that. So I'm home writing my blog with a slightly dual ticking of my bomb of a noggin that might not explode today. Also eating a warm cinnamon roll with cream cheese frosting on top. Melting down all sides of the roll! Mmmmmm! All in all today wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.

2.03.2011

Just Me

Well, I will start off by telling everyone a little about myself. I was born in Twin Falls, Idaho and have lived in Idaho my whole life. I have had a pretty hard life growing up, but I don't let that get me down. I was in the foster care system from age 7 till 18. I moved around a lot as a child and ended up in Salmon, Idaho. Where I currently call my home! My parents Shannon and Brad Johnson took me in when I was 18 due to difficulties with my guardians. I have been apart of the Johnson family for almost 2 years now! I wouldn't have it any other way!

I am a very strong willed woman and strive for what I want in life! I currently like in Moscow, Idaho and I attend the University of Idaho. My major is Sociology- Criminology emphasis. I want to be a probation officer when I grow up! Helping others has always been a part of me and I love listening and giving advice! I can give advice, but I have a hard time taking my own advice, I know, I know its a double standard but it happens! 

I have been in a relationship for 2 years as of October 9, 2010. We are living together in an apartment this year. I am so lucky to have him in my life and he is my rock! I wouldn't change him for the world! He is ONE of the nicest boys you will ever meet! I have to admit he is a nerd! But as he always says "Nerds rule the world", so he is really okay being a nerd. He also studies at the University of Idaho. His major is Virtual Technology and Design. He wants to become a video game designer.

I made a poor choice over our Christmas break and kissed another boy. And as of this May (when our lease is up)  we are going our separate ways. This is very hard for me, to know that I chose this for my life and if I could go back I would in a heartbeat! I truly love him with all my heart!

My favorite hobby is snowboarding. I have been doing it for over half of my life and I love it more than anything! That is where I feel free and open with the outdoors! If I could, I would just become a "ski bum". It is really difficult to go while being a full time student here at the UI. I would have to travel at least 2 hours to snowboard. That is really hard to imagine. I have lived close to a ski resort my whole life. The most an hour away. This sport is something my boyfriend and I both enjoy doing together and haven't done much of since we have been here at the UI! Which is difficult to think about not snowboarding a lot during the winter seasons!